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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 18:37:28 GMT -5
"I know," Alex nodded to the woman. Of course she wasn't. She wasn't really asking for anything specific. She was full of insinuations. He then smirked humorlessly and placed a hand into his own pocket, where his own wand rested. "They fight." He then managed enough composure to tilt his head before continuing, "or negotiate, though that seems to be only a distant fantasy these days."
It was true that neither side seemed intent to try and works thing out. How could they? One side was somewhat insane and driven by a deeply rooted resentment while the other had pushed them into this predicament because they had chosen to turn a blind eye. As in the case with the Ministry. He had absolutely no respect for the government of this place. Dumbledore had been the only one who had the right idea about things.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 18:06:04 GMT -5
Alex closed his eyes before standing and looking to her. He kept his mind focused on the moment. He didn't want to consider the extent of his anxiety or the apprehension therein. "I suppose," he offered, somewhat to himself, "that I'm just tired of having to pretend."
He focused on the color of her eyes, still so cold and critical, analyzing him and calling out his intelligence once again. It had been so tempting to just lie to her, but he considered that she might've forced him into proving that lie, perhaps even going so far as to have him torture one of his own colleagues. No, this was the better option. For everyone directly involved. It was the bigger picture he had to consider. He was more loyal than he had ever been to his side.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 17:33:33 GMT -5
Alex sighed deeply, watching that smile cross her face and bracing himself for the inevitable. There was no going back now. "Yes, I'm afraid so." And afraid was definitely the most fitting word to use. Afraid of her reaction, of whatever punishment might follow, and of the entire dismal situation they had all been subject to. "However," he continued then, voice somehow remaining level. "For argument's sake, would you have even believed me if I claimed allegiance to your cause?"
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 17:08:00 GMT -5
That sort of struck home. Being called a coward. His father was a coward, only voicing his opinions and never actually doing anything to enforce them. He didn't want to be anything like that. Still, he couldn't allow himself to break his carefully concealed façade with this woman.
"If I were to decide on yours," Alex stated in a conversational tone, fighting to keep his voice controlled. "I'd be coaxed into doing things I'd rather not. I sort of uphold the saying that one should always choose the side that doesn't force a decision. Basically," he felt a bit of determination, levelly meeting her gaze. This was it. No more dancing around the inevitable. It strengthened him a little, actually voicing this aloud to her. "I find that your side doesn't need my assistance whatsoever."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 16:19:41 GMT -5
Alex looked to his friend with a humorless smirk, "I have no idea."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 16:18:03 GMT -5
Alex sighed before offering him a nod and a grateful smile once again, "yes, it definitely did. You seem to have a certain way with her."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 16:08:36 GMT -5
Alex involuntarily tensed again when she touched his shoulder but continued to maintain his outward composure. Inside, however, his mind was preoccupied with considering a few different replies. What could he say? He couldn't straight out lie any more than he could completely oppose her. "Whichever side needs me most," he replied, somewhat honestly. "In the end."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 15:45:10 GMT -5
Alex held his gaze within hers, willing himself against looking away. There it was. One of the questions he had been trying to avoid. He was backed into that corner again. "Mine are currently undecided. I can see the reasoning behind each viewpoint."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 15:08:16 GMT -5
The woman certainly remembered the strangest details. Alex swallowed and nodded, not entirely sure what he had just gotten himself into. "Yes, that's right."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 14:43:26 GMT -5
"I don't know," Alex admitted. "It might not even be possible. I was mostly just clarifying." He tilted his head, "perhaps there's a chance I might become more...accustomed to being around you though." He didn't plan on extensively residing within her presence, but he was fairly certain that it was the only way to overcome the distress she inflicted over him.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 13:58:39 GMT -5
Alex lowered his eyes briefly and sighed. This was a useless attempt. She'd twist any words to suit her vendetta. "Yes, I suppose it was essentially what you said." He returned his gaze to hers, "would you rather I not feel that way around you?" Though he supposed it didn't really matter. How she wanted people to feel was entirely at her whim. It changed.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 13:46:08 GMT -5
"Not exactly," Alex responded gently, treading carefully. He didn't want to argue with the woman. "The sickness is solely due to the symptoms of the anxiety itself. A knot in my stomach, shortness of breath, chills down my spine. It's merely an involuntary reaction to your presence." Yes, if he could reside in the same room with her without experiencing this reaction he felt he'd be far better off. It was never the anger he felt towards her at the forefront of his mind, not even the resentment at witnessing her torture his friend. It was fear, first and foremost. Fear of the unknown. He could never seem to predict anything she did or take any prior precautions against her. It was so very unsettling.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 13:32:55 GMT -5
Alex nodded, hesitant and guarded as always while within her presence. She was very quick to react as well as exceedingly sharp. Nothing got past her, it seemed. "Yes," he measured his words, bracing for her reaction. Again, she looked far too unassuming for the situation at hand. "Being around you makes me a feel little anxious."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 13:25:59 GMT -5
Alex watched as the woman exited into the office before furrowing his brows. What was she up to, exactly? That smile of hers was so disarming.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 13:15:45 GMT -5
Alex looked up at the woman, meeting her eyes and inhaling deeply. There wasn't really a point in being anything but honest with her about this. "All the common symptoms of anxiety."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 10:52:37 GMT -5
Alex caught Ginny's eye and offered her a concealed smile in return. He was grateful to Caden as well, despite the fact that he had once again drawn the attention of one of the instructors. Still, he was grateful to him. He had definitely succeeded in serving as a distraction for Lestrange.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 10:50:31 GMT -5
Alex's eyes widened slightly and he tensed the instant he heard her voice. Glancing over, he fought to compose himself, the same chill passing through him in reaction to her entrance. Beneath that healer's hat, her appearance was even more sinister. He continued to relax his breathing, fighting to maintain a calm countenance. This was just his luck. The irony of it was a little unnerving. It had been a bad idea to come here alone.
And she needed a response. She didn't like to feel ignored. Was he ill? Yes, he admitted that he was beginning to feel a little sick to his stomach. After a moment of consideration, he slowly offered a nod. "Yes, professor. A little."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 3:55:42 GMT -5
Alex walked into the clinic area, pleased to see that it appeared empty. He needed a moment away, to collect his thoughts and take a deep breath in solitude. This was how he typically spent his free time. Looking for a place to just...calm himself.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 2:23:16 GMT -5
"Exactly," Alex responded before shaking his head. "You just have to look at the bigger picture sometimes, Cade. Your defiance can result in effecting more people than just yourself."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 2:21:26 GMT -5
"That's definitely true," Alex sighed as he cast his eyes across the expanse of the Great Hall. Everything was so very bleak. It seemed like every day was deliberately dragging by, trapping them here for as long as possible.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 2:08:13 GMT -5
"I think so," Alex nodded. "It's the best any of us can really do at the moment."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 2:07:14 GMT -5
Alex smirked a little at the nudge from Caden. Oh yes, that had definitely provided a great deal of entertainment.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 4, 2014 2:04:53 GMT -5
Alex tensed as Alecto found her way back over to him. She seemed to enjoy using him as a taunt for his friends. He glanced over to Draco and considered he was in the same sort of predicament. He supposed it was either this or speak up against her as Caden and Ginny tended to do. No one could really escape. If you remained silent, you were used, if you spoke up you were threatened. There was no right way.
The tip of her wand continued to run through his hair and over his skin and he fought a flinch as he felt a chill ni reaction to her proximity. He held his eyes on his friend as he listened to his answer.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 3, 2014 22:43:59 GMT -5
Alex glared at the man, grateful that his head was turned away from him at the moment. He was threatening Ginny now. It was becoming a regular occurrence for her actually. These Death Eaters just couldn't help themselves, it seemed. He really wished there was something he could say. He supposed, if it came down to it, he would definitely intervene on her behalf. He couldn't just sit by and watch her be tortured. It was different than the situation with Caden.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 3, 2014 18:31:21 GMT -5
"I see," Alex nodded, considering her words a moment. So, Neville Longbottom had taken lead on this then? The boy had certainly grown a great deal in the past year. He was the most unlikely of them all. He looked to her, "have you made any plans so far?"
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 3, 2014 12:53:54 GMT -5
Alex nodded, somewhat expecting the unofficial nature of the organization. "How often do you all meet?"
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 3, 2014 12:27:17 GMT -5
Alex observed the shift in the girl's demeanor, her face taking on a much more open and exuberant nature. He felt the pressure of her clap on his shoulder and felt instantly comforted by it. He definitely felt as if he belonged here. It was the right place to be.
"Alright," he nodded, thinking for a moment. "Do you have a designated leader?" He wondered if it was her.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 3, 2014 11:44:00 GMT -5
Alex stood and grabbed his mice before reclaiming his seat beside Caden and considering the task before him. It would be best to detach himself from the situation, considering the cruelty of it. He looked to the two creatures before him before glancing in Ginny's direction as she argued with Lestrange.
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 3, 2014 11:34:59 GMT -5
Alex took the quill and looked to the parchment before him, the heading standing out to him and compelling his loyalty. The signatures beneath were blurred but it was comforting to know that there were others who were willing to put their lives on the line for this cause. He inhaled deeply before leaning forward and signing his name alongside the rest of them, joining their ranks and once again feeling part of something greater.
He smiled and looked to Ginny, handing the quill back to her. He was admittedly a little excited about this and was grateful to her for offering him the opportunity. "Thank you," he voiced aloud. "For reaching out to me like this."
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Post by Alexander Chevalier on Mar 3, 2014 11:27:40 GMT -5
Alex had tensed the instant Alecto had threatened him, eyes somewhat wide. Ginny was very outspoken, calling the woman out and challenging her lecture. However, he also admired her for it. It was foolish, yes, but also courageous. Of course he understood why most of the Death Eater's were so against the Muggles, his own mother had even been afraid of what he was. However, they were generalizing. They didn't understand the race as a whole. The Muggles had become exceedingly more open-minded in recent years. And besides, the Death Eaters needlessly torturing all supporters and those with tainted blood went beyond all of that. They were prejudiced and behaving no better. What they were starting was every bit as cruel as what the Muggles were doing to each other.
When she averted her threat to Malfoy boy, Alex looked to Ginny, wondering if she would continue to fighting for her argument. However, it looked as if her determination was wavering. He considered intervening, redirecting the woman's focus, but he wondered if it might do more harm than good at this point.
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